Oh, Russia - you crazy, liberty crushing, hypocritical minx, you.
Normally, I wouldn’t take a second to think about this, or post something like this on my Tumblr, but I feel really obliged to react on this AfterEllen recap … Because this one’s very personal to me.
AfterEllen seems to think it’s hypocritical that t.A.T.u. will be performing during the Olympics in Russia, while the entire country is against homosexuality. The entire article is kinda negative, but I don’t get it.
The way I see it, it’s actually a good thing.
t.A.T.u. made me realize I was gay. Really, they did.
Sure, NOW (12 years later) people think I’m crazy when I say it, but at the time, I was a 14 year-old-girl with big struggles and they were 14 year-old-girls in the pouring rain, singing exactly what I was feeling.
So even though they aren’t exactly gay, or one of them identifies as a bisexual, what’s the difference with television characters who make us realize we’re gay? Sure, they earned a lot of money by doing it, but so is Naya Rivera by playing gay Santana Lopez on Glee. And I love her anyway.
THANK GOD I had the faux lesbians of t.A.T.u. … They had me listening to their songs day and night while struggling with myself about my feelings for that best friend of mine. And they made me accept myself. And I really liked their songs. And people who liked their songs for a different reason, automatically seemed fine with the fact that 2 girls were kissing. My entire family and friends figured out how I was feeling before I did, just by listening to their music.
My dad even liked All The Things She Said. He watched the music video together with me. He turned the volume up in the car when we were on a ride together. And a month later, he suddenly died, without me ever telling him that I was gay.
So, Yulia and Lena, they have given me at least a BIT of solution when it comes to the never-will-be-answered question of “how would my dad have reacted if I told him?”. Because I know he never had anything bad to say about the music or the music video - or the girls kissing. And I don’t know how to explain it correctly, but I feel that because of them, he knew before I was ready to tell him. And by turning up the volume and buying me that single and stuff, he supported that. And that, my dear friends, is a MASSIVE gift - and they may not be gay in real life, but they have made my life better by pretending to be gay.
(Bonus: I once met them in real life and they were really nice.)
These girls did a lot for the LGBT community.
So, the way I see it: if two girls from that very cold-hearted Russia can make a positive change for us, while the entire country is trying its best to make it go away, good for them! Maybe they will inspire even more people. Maybe one day, someone else will have a similar story like me. And even if it’s just one, it’s worth it, right?
So … I WILL be watching their performance …